Since this several days, there so many thing happened around me. Many type of change had occur. I don't even care about that actually, but when the time ticks slowly, I can feel the pain straightly.
Hari semakin hari orang akan makin sibuk, sampaikan minggu tu hectic sangat bagi diorang. bukan saja minggu, bahkan nak bagitahu something yang sangat penting pun memang tak sempat dan kadang-kadang kita lupa, bila kita tengah sibuk sampaikan yang paling rapat dengan kita pun kita boleh lupa. tak kisahla orang ke, manusia ke, benda ke, laptop ke, facebook ke. And I don't mind that much but sometimes I feel very despair and this is such a torture to me.
kadang-kadang benda camni boleh buat ktia terasa jauh dengan diorang. tak kisahla diorang tu manusia ke, benda ke, facebook ke, twitter ke. It's okay. I understand this circumstance and aku dah biasa dengan benda camni. and bila something camni dah jadi, mulalah the despairness tu came, sampai naik roller coaster , terjun bangunan pun the despair feeling tak hilang :')
Sometimes i thought of our worst fights.Sometimes i would drown myself deep in my blanket and cry.Sometimes i wish 'us' didnt happen.Sometimes i wish i wouldnt have to go through all of these shits,the pain and heartache.Sometimes i wish i didnt let myself fall too hard being in love.But when i think of all the good times,or when he did something dumb, by looking deeply into my eyes and smile. It is as if that is his way of telling me that he loves me.And i love every minute of it. Even when he would sneakily trying to put his fingers right between my underarm and tickles me.
The pain will keep you awake. You will be sad, but not for long because you will get sick and tired of being sad. Don't let it live in your head. Let the happiness of everything around you fill your whole body. From pain and suffering, you will be saved. You will be saved by endless happiness. If the pain holds your heart too much, cry. Don't let tears be kept inside. Let them go.
- he's my best hero ever -
